You know, if only you could see yourself in my eyes… Maybe then you’d realize why I get upset with you so much. Let’s face it, your just an inconsiderate jerk and as much as I hate it I can’t stop loving you.
Do you ever just lay down and cry? Not because your sad, but because you think so much and so hard it just overflows through tears? It’s like you think and think, analyze and analyze, wonder and wonder… It makes you feel so heavy and your heart starts to ache, but it’s really not because your sad… It’s because your brain can’t take the pressure.
Well, in about 8 days it’ll be my 20th birthday…and for the past couple of months I’ve say here and though about how I’ve changed. I used to be skinny, with a flat tummie…I used to have long, curly brunette hair with a face full ofwarmth and happiness…I thought of myself as pretty..but now I’m lazy, unmotivated, I’ve gotten fat, and have dyed my hair so many times that’s it’s become dead…My face has become cold, and less happy… I crave so desperately to go back to what I once was. So I’ve decided, on my 20th birthday that I’m going to make a change. Back to the girl I used to be..the skinny, long haired, face full of happiness girl that I’ve always wanted to be. This is my goal, my metamorphosis.
“This is why it hurts the way it hurts. You have too many words in your head. There are too many ways to describe the way you feel. You will never have the luxury of a dull ache. You must suffer through the intricacy of feeling too much.”—Unknown (via le-vide)